I’m still used at those conf organizers who treat me very diffeeenrky all of a sudden and I don’t know why and they won’t tell me
I’m fucking annoyed about having to go to the pain clinic tomorrow, at this point they’re even more useless to me than they’ve been fid a long fine, only this time I have even less of anyone else and at least they can write me prescriptions (even though I’m already sure they’ll just send me to specialists ie people who don’t really exist, let alone in a way that would allow me to see them.
I’m annoyed at how I’m always tired by the time my partner gets here and am too exhausted to do anything, so I nudge them to work on their studs because there’s nothing we can do together at this point anyway.
I just want to scream and just kill mysekd. I also hate how disconnected and numb I feel, including them. But I also feel too far out at sea to do anything about it.
I just want to sleep sleep sleep for 1800 nights and days.
I have so much shit I should do and I’m so exhausted all the time.
What I actually want to do on Friday:
- Order paths stuff
- 2 hours in talkr[I dropped off here; by the time I post it, I don’t know what it means]