My teeth hurt, inside and out.
I order six varieties of saltines and a bunch of other food for delivery (hummus! Carrots! Bread rolls!). I reheat leftovers from two nights ago for dinner, tomatoes baked with feta; once I take the sizzling food out of the microwave, my stomach turns just smelling it. I put it next to the fridge to cool down so I can put it back in there later. I slice and eat a pineapple and a few cherries instead. No idea what’s up with all that, but I don’t care to interrogate it.
Earlier, I read a post in the covidlonghaulers subreddit, a video of a guy who’s had long covid for five years and all medications, treatments, supplements he’s tried. Those types of posts are so popular in various chronic illness communities, always with several people asking for details on one or the other experiment, dosages, and, of course, the million-dollar-question: What helped?? They always sound hopeful, or desperate, or both; or that’s just my projection of a few internet strangers’ writing. Probably the latter.
I maintain a note on my phone with “stuff to try?”, that’s the headline. When I read about something that someone somewhere found helpful for some symptoms and it doesn’t sound like pure snake oil (only, like, 20% diluted snake oil, or less, if possible), I add it to the list. The idea is that I will research those ideas more and try the ones that seem somewhat scientifically backed, or at least as much as that’s possible for a disease that has no known cause, no treatment, no cure.
This is the current list:
I have no recollection or idea what any of those things are. But that’s for future me to figure out anyway, I guess.
Earlier, I wondered why I turn here so much at the moment. It’s probably because I’m too tired to talk but haven’t said remotely what I need to say, and I’m still figuring out what that even is while more things keep happening.
I read another post by someone asking what didn’t help. A few things I’m still using are mentioned (Q10, low-dose naltrexone); the LDN is on its way out anyway, I make a note to pause the Q10 too, it’s not like I feel a positive impact from it.
I watch Stick, a new show with Owen Wilson. I’m on episode 6 and so bored, its formulaic plot is tiring, and I say that as someone with half a functioning brain cell who’s trying not to throw up her dinner even though it’s already been back up her throat 34 times in the last 15 minutes.
I get up again and walk around in circles in my living room hoping it’ll get more air out.
It’s 20:05 now.