I haven’t written in here for a few days; I even drafted this note in the bathroom while brushing my teeth. I’m very busy with work stuff and mundane adult shit like paying bills and finding workarounds for my home internet now being out for 11 days, and have been sewing a lot outside of it (pants; none of mine fit me anymore. I hate that). In any case, I’m too busy to think much, and right now, I consider that a good thing.
I increased the dosage for my off label med, attempt no. 2, by 0.075mg yesterday. Already got a tremor out of hell again. It’s hard to believe how strong this stuff is. But it seems to be doing good things: My heart palpitations are significantly reduced, whereas my energy levels are up, and so is my ability to hold my body. I haven’t been able to sew in months because the sitting was too exhausting, so this is a huge step.
I vow to enjoy it while it lasts.
Looked into social security a bit more to figure out what I’d do if I wasn’t able to work at all anymore. It’s not much.